Humble pie

Humility is not nature. I believe it is nestled within the ego and nurtured and it seems to take a great slap upside the head for some of us to recognize this virtue. Some of us may never know it. Experience has led me down the varied paths of corporal discipline. Many times. Over and over and over and over again. It always works the best when it comes from someone I really look up to and respect. Or maybe they just have bigger "humility building" muscles...big "anti-ego guns." It's my ego that leads me to think I don't have an ego : )...or at least much of one. But, in "humble" defense of my ego...it's my ego that keeps me getting up in the morning. The thought that someone needs me to help them get through their day (usually it's my kids...possibly my husband)...and it is probably pretty accurate, most of the time. Ego feeds any amount of inspiration or ambition that leads to creativity and growth. Ego provides the confidence to face people every day. As a "seeker", my ego leads me to my teacher and my books to feed my arsenal of knowledge so that I can, someday, present what I've learned as I've applied it in my life. Sometimes, we step outside of bounds (let me just say, here, that what I have learned and experienced in my life is that that "edge" gets narrower and narrower and narrower as I grow up...which means that it becomes much easier to step outside the boundary) and someone with "big guns" comes and slaps us upside our big ol' head. "HEY KIM! Pull your head out of your butt! Little too much ego, here...back off, Girl." Followed by loud sirens and red lights...and every so often, a firing squad. And I cower off into the corner with my tail between my legs and my face hidden in my arm...for awhile. Licking my wounds...a shattered ego. A large dose of humility fed, sometimes, in the guise of cruelty and public death. Because that's what it takes. Our egos get too big...or, ignorance numbs our awareness. Something.

Don't be afraid to face humility. The "guy's with the big-guns" are there for our own good. Or maybe for the Greater Good. And, just a little bit of cushioning to the blow: Remember what your intention was. If it came from a good place, learn from the consequences and let it go. Don't take it personally. It's not always about you, anyway : )