Authentic

Good music. People with LOTs of character. One follows the other. A big fan of Susan Tedeschi, I was tuning in to her yesterday...listening to some of her groovy lyrics. In "Gonna Move", she talks about moving to the big city to go to college...how they wanted her to be someone she wasn't. They'd teach her how to think. "...all those books were making her lose [her] smile." You can't be a singer! Be real! Yeah..."they" told Stevie Ray Vaughn the same thing...couldn't really sing, but the man could WAIL on the guitar...composition, lyrics...legendary talent. And authentic. In the movies, "They" wanted Paul Newman to play the handsome hero, the love interest...he said, "yeah...no. Not me. I wanna be the hard case." Authentic, he was. The people who never sell out. Embracing who they are and who they want to be. It's made me consider some of the paths I've taken. Lot's of paths led to nowhere : )...at least seemingly. A college degree that I don't use...much...other than to say I have one. The paths that taught me the most are the ones that some might think I should regret. My acting in "bad" form...a little gullible in some instances...but most of the time out of curiosity...and selfishness. All of these paths have led me to this place and that is why I don't regret. Ever. That is not the same as feeling remorse to those people I have hurt...(and there are plenty.) Yoga has helped me to understand that it doesn't serve to dwell and wallow in past actions just to regret...but that is not the same as being aware enough to learn from the past, "examining our wake," so to speak. And, maybe, learning enough not to repeat the same patterns. But, maybe I will. I sure have. Such is the ride of this life, and I hope to enjoy as much of it as I can without doing (too much) harm. Yoga is teaching me how to be exactly who I am (as I am today) authentically. I may be a little bi-polar tomorrow, today I am steady and straight (maybe.) How would life be without the rises and dips in the road?

Probably not very interesting. Or fun. Or authentic.

ENJOY! ("joy"is the root of that word..carry it into your life.)