I'm a Vata-Pitta. Air and fire. That means I'm either anxious and afraid or angry and determined...or some of both: Anxiously pissed-off, fearfully angry, afraid that I'm angry, or pissed-off that I'm scared. Which could be scary (and life-threatening) when combined with 'determined' providing: A) There are any sharp objects nearby. B) there are any sharp, projectile objects nearby. C) there are any sharp POTENTIALLY projectile objects nearby...hell, and D) make that any objects that could become potentially projectile...blunt, sharp or able to be improvised as such.
While I've embraced my fiery nature...put it to good, constructive use...I'm a little less enchanted by my proclivity toward anger. My air fans my fire causing me to 'react' without thinking through the consequences (many of which affecting the lives of other people...)...just some of which may be hurt feelings (not mine.) I'm a mouthy girl. Sassy. A bit sarcastic. Even a little too honest sometimes (where others have the sense to veil the truth enough to soften the caustic facts...) This path of self-discovery unearthed (from the deep recesses of my ego) these non-life affirming vices. WHOA. Never mind that in the process, I've veritably torched (INCINERATED) numerous friendships...I've spent a good many years attempting to mend broken (burned) fences. Sadly (for me) most of which attempts got nowhere...neither absolution or satisfaction. Anxiety. That's it. Blah.
This path has showed me just that. The past is the past. AHA! My intentions to repair past failed relationships...or at least the hearts involved...never really succeeded. So. My change is thus: With awareness, I will cultivate and nurture the relationships that I now have. Use my loving words, not my acidic ones. Shine more. Dim less. Hug more...grab more ass...(well, you know what I mean ;) ...show the lasting LOVE that I really have...not the fleeting ire. What an epiphany!! An EXPLOSION of consciousness! Who'd a thought...?
This is a FIERY, WILD RIDE...gonna live it...LOT'S...with love.
While I've embraced my fiery nature...put it to good, constructive use...I'm a little less enchanted by my proclivity toward anger. My air fans my fire causing me to 'react' without thinking through the consequences (many of which affecting the lives of other people...)...just some of which may be hurt feelings (not mine.) I'm a mouthy girl. Sassy. A bit sarcastic. Even a little too honest sometimes (where others have the sense to veil the truth enough to soften the caustic facts...) This path of self-discovery unearthed (from the deep recesses of my ego) these non-life affirming vices. WHOA. Never mind that in the process, I've veritably torched (INCINERATED) numerous friendships...I've spent a good many years attempting to mend broken (burned) fences. Sadly (for me) most of which attempts got nowhere...neither absolution or satisfaction. Anxiety. That's it. Blah.
This path has showed me just that. The past is the past. AHA! My intentions to repair past failed relationships...or at least the hearts involved...never really succeeded. So. My change is thus: With awareness, I will cultivate and nurture the relationships that I now have. Use my loving words, not my acidic ones. Shine more. Dim less. Hug more...grab more ass...(well, you know what I mean ;) ...show the lasting LOVE that I really have...not the fleeting ire. What an epiphany!! An EXPLOSION of consciousness! Who'd a thought...?
This is a FIERY, WILD RIDE...gonna live it...LOT'S...with love.
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